8/9
"When you are washing the dishes, washing the dishes must be
the most important thing in your life. Just as when you are
drinking tea, drinking tea must be the most important thing
in your life. Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it
is the axis on which the whole world revolves -
slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future.
Live the actual moment. Only this actual moment is life."
- Thich Nhat Hanh
at times i have indeed left myself, let myself fall numb to
the present tense and to the feelings that act to tether me
there
"as a living creature I am part of two kinds of forces -
growth and decay, sprouting and withering, living and dying
- and at any given moment of our lives, each one of us is
actively located somewhere along a continuum between these
two forces." - Audre Lord, A Burst of Light
8/4 distresss tolerance
"ANXIETY is considered to be the ego's response
to the operation of the death instinct."
- Segal, Introduction to the Work of Melanie Klein
"ACCEPTANCE is the only way out of hell.
ACCEPTANCE is acknowledging what is.
ACCEPTANCE of reality as it is requires an act of CHOICE."
- Marsha Linehan, Skills Training Manual
acceptance is the death of a type of life
7/31 limits of calculability
"hypercrisis conditioning describes repeated disruption of the
environment’s apparent rule structure itself. The subject is
not only exposed to danger; they are repeatedly taught that
prediction, preparation, competence, and institutional trust
may fail without warning."
- @tactical_nook
in this circumstance, life must be organized through
1. pursuit of difficulty and desire
2. disreliance on strict fields of planning
brace, buoy, and indurate lines of flight
"How much has the sense of our own power been diminished by a world that determines what appears to be possible and impossible, by a world that has decided it is perfectly reasonable and responsible to indefinitely degrade our lives and desolate the Earth?
- Ian Alan Paul, The Strategic Elaboration of Sense,
7/23 objects at play
"Life destroying life before an audience of objects..."
- Christopher Isherwood, A Single Man
"...let there be no mistake: objects work as categories of objects which,
in the most tyrannical fashion, define categories of people - they police
social meaning, and the significations they engender are rigidly controlled."
- Jean Baudrillard, The System of Objects
"there is hope, as not all forms of life can be loaded into a feedback loop.
Disabling the process of cybernetization requires an opening to panic as it
represents absolute risk.
Revolt relies on potentiality and experimentation to avoid being captured by capital or the state. They propose diffuse guerilla tactics and an invisible revolt as modes of warfare, whereby they don’t want to punish injustice
but create possible worlds."
- Lander Govaerts, review of The Cybernetic Hypothesis, Tiqqun
the battle of the future is waged internally, maintenance of contemplation and construction of new narratives
that break from categories and social meanings
7/22 catching fire in a training exercise
it is difficult to know how far you must go
what are the limits? where is the line of constraint?
the body is saturated, the bounds are expanding
all structures are provisional
all communication negotiation
"Secretly or not... it is necessary to become different
or else cease to be."
- George Bataille, Acéphale
"Where psychoanalysis says “Stop, find your self again,”
we should say instead, “Let’s go further still,...
we haven’t sufficiently dismantled our self."
- Deleauze and Guattari, A Thousand Plateaus
7/16/26 observe your emotion
in the struggle for personal sovereignty
NOTE the presence
Step BACK
Get UNSTUCK
step 1
DO NOT BLOCK DO NOT SUPPRESS DO NOT PUSH AWAY
DO NOT KEEP DO NOT HOLD ON DO NOT AMPLIFY
ASK APP NOT TO TRACK
are we doomed? are we in free fall? the structure of a reactive network is such
that a matter of time separates stimulus from reaction
it is no easy skill to catch a falling knife freely dropped
with a cast of vigilant eyes trained to see the passage
of the blade through a crack in the floorboards
make no mistake, I don't know better. I lay claim to sensitivity and anxiety only,
mirror twins sat upright in a dimming world
"IT IS DIFFICULT TO APPRECIATE THE FUNCTIONS OF DEADNESS IF ONE IS FOCUSED
ON ELIMINATING IT...WHILE 'PLAYING DEAD,' THE PATIENT IS STRUGGLING TO SURVIVE."
- Knafo & Selzer
7/13
"to rely too heavily on artificial intelligence to complete unfamiliar tasks
may compromise skill acquisition in the process"
evidential feedback loop interrupted, splattered with misunderstood noise
disconnection from reality infects mimetically
approximation of thinking replaces thinking itself
approximate mapping supersedes actual landforms
7/11
"The presence or absence of human remains in the rubble
of burned houses is clearly of great significance"
- Ruth Tringham
experience is consecrated by fire
sentiment in action over object
in event over stasis
collapse of currents
from quantity
to quality of change
horizon expands encompassing whole field
of play, enchainment and fragmentation
7/10
"instead of marrying and having a baby..., as society would deem appropriate,
Frankenstein “collected the instruments of life around that might infuse a
spark of being into the lifeless thing that lay at [his] feet...”"
"depicted as sexually suspect, Dracula, like Frankenstein and his monster,
is a loner who foregoes his social duties. “Horror novels are often
structured around conflict between the safety of a middle-class family
home and queer-coded loners who seek its disruption...”" - Cody Delistraty
is participation complicity?
resistance means ripping life forth
7/9
for the nomadic war machinic individual
guerilla warfare must be developed to an unprecedented degree in the coming years
if we fail to do this, we will find it difficult to defeat the enemy
vigilance, mobility, attack
to
absorption, intensity, abandon
build a life growing horizontally in multiple
directions without center create an unpredictable
web of skills and interests
withdraw attention and desire from
systems of capture
within a widening zone of cultivated opacity